There is a law in SA that says we are not allowed to do any fireworks in a
residential area!
The people that's doing it tonight?
Can you stop and think for a moment?
Our animals are scared! And because of that they run around in streets and
get killed! Urgh! Think would you!
Lord? Pls help me feel better? Pls take away this stupid pain? Please?
Amen!
But they say time flies when you are having fun...
This year brought a lot of things my way. I made new friends, lost a truly
awesome friend. I can say that I made a new best friend! Not that I love my
BFF less...hehehe!
There where tears, court cases and some crap.
But most important of all, there where laughter, love and fun!
The prayer in my heart today is that God will bless all the people I love!
That He may keep them safe, make them feel wanted and loved. May they be
happy, may they prosper, may they love deeply and honestly!
Amen
I would love to crawl onto any flat surface and S.L.E.E.P
They can even keep the pillows!
I'm staying as busy as I can, but the day feels like a week!
Anyone out there that wants to help? Help, so I can stay awake?
So I took my time and having my second cup of coffee...
I realized something this morning! So...
I need to fix it!
Hopefully we will be done at about midday..
Wish I could stay in bed, the weather is chilly and it looks like rain
again!
To make it even worse to wake up early today? I had a beautiful dream!
Spent the whole day next to the pool...Heaven after this hectic week at
work!
I received stunning gifts! I will blog those for you a bit later - watch
this space ;)
Today, we celebrated the birth of our Jesus Christ! Remembering that is
what this season is all about...
I miss mein freund !
What do I want for Christmas? If Santa gave me a wish or six... Let me tell
you!
- I want love, peace and hope for all the people I love!
- I want the people I love to be happy!
- I want Ash's to be a success
- I want mein far-away friend to come visit
- I want my BFF to find the job she's always dreamed of
- I want health for all the people I love
- I want God to bless us all!
Yes, it is... We postpone things, we wait for things, we cry over things,
and what makes life worth while? To spread love all over!
Christmas is two days away....
And what do I plan for Christmas this year?
To love my family, even tho they drive me nuts sometimes! AND to love mein
freunds! (Yes, they also drive me nuts sometimes!)
Also, it is a time to remember the good things, the bad things and the ugly
things...
But as I go into Christmas 2010 - I am grateful for everything God sent my
way. Yes, we lost, but we gained as well....
Today? Today we've got the opportunity to fix things, to promise new
things, to share things!
And most important of all?
TO LOVE THOSE THINGS THAT MAKES US NUTS!
I love you all, from the bottom of my heart!
X-X-X-SSS!!!
It was wonderful to sleep 30 minutes longer! I decided to leave later in
the mornings, since the traffic is so much less...
Yesterday I did something stupid! I can really kick myself for that. What
he must think now, I don't know - I truly hope he doesn't think I'm this
crazy, obesessed person!
That's all folks!
The Vuvuzela joins the list of other words uttered by politicians,
marketeers and fans during the year.
To many a grown up's dismay, another on the list is 'belieber'. And yes,
you guessed it, its someone who is a fan of Justin Bieber!
Other interesting words were, sofalize, the coffice and i-dosing.
You will never guess what these mean!!
It is a bit on the chilly side, must be all the rain we had the past week
or so...
I spoke to my aunt yesterday, she and her husband is both financial advisor
people. She also said Ash's is a very good idea! She spoke to me about
taxes, investments etc. So I will go see them in January, when I resigned.
The time is closing in fast! Am I scared - yessss very! But I'm not
changing my mind!
I miss having my BFF here! But as we all know, my sister is a bit selfish
when it comes to time with her little boy! She's working half days this
week - and she wants alone time with him... :(
I was very close to sleeping in this morning, in the mood to phone in, and
say I overslept! But, ja, then I realized I have a few things I need to
finish at work before Friday.
I verlang you my far-away-friend!
That's me for today!
May God bless my family and friends, and may He bring peace, hope and love
to everyone I love!
Amen!
My wish for her is all the happiness in the world, and that she will find
what she is looking for! That she will receive an abundance of love, peace
and joy!
Lord, please keep her safe? Please let her be ok and happy?
I wish I could make her loneliness go away? I'm not even sure she is
lonely?
Even tho we fight a lot, I love her dearly! I do, and I hope she knows
that...
I want to make it special for two people, it is soo important for me, to
let them have a special day!
Tomorrow is my stepmom's birthday, and like usual I really don't feel like
going! Grrrrr! Wish I could stay home and bake in the sun.
My BFF is going home for a few days, I'm going to miss her dearly! It was
nice having her here every day!
Anyone for coffee?
I really don't like driving in this weather, but I have no other choice,
since I'm working today. Yes, it is a public holiday! So, no questions
asked...
So its not supposed to be sad, but I cried my eyes out anyway...
Like J will say: because I can.
Then after I started coughing a week ago, I got advise to change my brand, so I'm trying that. But personally I think I need an asthma pump....
Or sinus medication
OR
Sleep....
My BFF bought me another gift, I feel special - don't you just love Bon Jovi's new album, especially: what do you got?
D1 - miss you!
alles gaan uitwerk!
Dat jy eintlik rondgaan en mense seer maak? Dat jy weet wat hulle sien is jou lelikgeid? En dis al?
Ek dink ek het vandag 'n jaar en 'n bietjie se vriendskap weggegooi en dit sal seker nooit weer werk nie.
My enigste twee ware vriende is dan vandag weg, klaar en niks meer nie.
My intensies was altyd net goed. Dit kan ek met alle eerlikheid se...
Maar ek gaan nie meer seermaak nie, ek gaan nie meer lelik wees nie...
Ek is jammer!
Nou moet ek 'n brug bou ne?
alles gaan uitwerk!
I'm tired! I'm really, really tired. Urgh!
Wish I can sleep for a week...
There's so many things going on in my head, maybe it is that?
Just too much.
alles gaan uitwerk!
And it was absolutely lovely!
First of all, this church is build like a shopping mall, with small little
shops, restaurants and everything is decorated with fairy lights!
Then the Swingtones Big Band! All I can say is: Great! They did a lot of
Frankie's music and swing, and that made me think about my far-away friend!
He would have loved the whole setup!
We disagreed about the bill again, just like we always do! "I'll pay, NO,
I'll pay" The piece of paper get abused, or torn... Most likely both! And
the one that wins, never has enough money in her purse to pay, so you
borrow from each other....
I miss seeing her every day, I do! I wish we could see each other more
during the week, but that is not always possible.
Now, we never stop babbling when we see each other!
I prayed for a BFF like this, for a very long time! You don't pluck them
off trees... They come your way, and they don't spoil or go rotten, they
grow better every day, like a good bottle of red wine!
I think its safe to say that our friendship matured, and, above all else,
we know each other so well!
Will it be grand to spend each day, fighting over bills, men, emotions etc?
YES it will! But life throws us some curve balls, and we must duck or dive,
or run away. But the great thing about a BFF is, that you always meet up
again, make up again - and yes, fight again!
I will not allow circumstances to make any type of scratch in our
friendship! I believe that all these shitty things, that complicate life so
much, is making our friendship stronger!
We can take on the world!
And what will my BFF say? She will say: PPFFTTTT!
I lafsu - always!
(X) - sorry can't ever get the hug thing right!
It feels like I'm here all by myself today. I don't like feeling like this!
It feels like its me on the one end, and the rest of the world on the
other...
First of all I want to give thanks to You! For my family and friends. That
I have a roof over my head, that I don't have to go sleep hungry tonight!
That I can still dream! And most of all I want to thank You for being our
forgiving, helping, loving God!
Lord, I want to ask you to help us tonight?
Help us realize what is important in life? That everything is possible
through You? With You?
That You will not forsake us? That You can show us the way? That You will
never forget about us?
Lord, please keep my family safe? Lord please keep my friends safe?
Help us, that we can trust in you with all our heart, body, mind and soul?
Amen!
I feel a bit better, amazing what 8 hours of sleep can do to a person! Its
true what they say: sleep heals!
Its hot and humid! Again! It feels like we stay in a rainforest!
I'm off to work...
The first thought in my head, was, that my BFF is no longer driving with
me, since she resigned yesterday! Urgh! I'm gonna miss her company in the
car!
All thanx to a woman who's life mission is to make things difficult for the
people that work for her!
Hate is a very strong feeling! But I think I'm well on my way, feeling like
that towards her!
But the good thing in all of this is, that God does not sleep! He will look
after my BFF and make sure she will be ok! Amen!
I'm dragging my feet this morning! Have to go back to that place! If all
goes well, and its in God's great plan? I will be out of there by the end
of January...
Maybe I must just borrow the money and get out now? I don't know!
I'm soo tired of this!
Lord? Pls help me to make the right choice?
Love does not put another off balance, or cause another loss of identity,
or anything else that involves a fall.
Love is unconditionally supportive, life enhancing, uplifting and
limitless. If one is truly in love, one rises, expands and unifies!
Sjoe - I want this too!
Verse: 2 Corinthians 4:16
That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are
being renewed every day.
- Our bodies may feel tired but our spirits can be renewed.
- Because of this we do not need to become discouraged.
- Let God come and renew your spirit today.
- When your spirit is renewed by God you have reason to live.
PRAYER: Lord, I pray that You will come and renew my spirit right now. Amen
Life is so short. That was the first thought that popped into my head as I
woke up this morning.
Why I feel like this, I don't know really.
But....
We have an awesome God! He will hear my prayers, and help me!
Then...
I miss my far-away friend!
But the Jack was nice...
Now we sit with a very dirty house, and the smell of left over braai.
At least there's not that much damage! Except for my BFF breaking a
window...hehe!
And today? We are maybe getting my tattoo and going to the movies - Harry
Potter....
That's me for today...
Well I'm not into one night stands and sex with men I don't know. I've been
there, done that. Done that a long time ago, before I realized there are
consequences for having fun, hot casual sex!
But I can do something about the tattoo.. I'm scared, I don't like pain
(yes, I don't think pain is a kick)..
So maybe that is on my agenda for today?
The only problem is, that I have a huge blue bruise where I want my tattoo!
Now I must decide between hot and steamy, and, pain and a mark for life....
Wat as ek net meer kan doen? Dinge kan regmaak sodat almal om my gelukkig
kan wees? Sou nice gewees het!
My BFF sny nie meer nie, dis wonderlik! Sy praat ten minste met my, al
baklei ons deesdae soos kat en hond. Ons maak ten minste op. Ek dank die
Here vir haar! As ek op my analising spree gaan, dan sit sy maar rustig en
probeer die regte dinge doen en praat...
Ek wens ek kon my far-away vriend ook help. Miskien is ek dalk te veel in
sy spasie? Miskien wil hy my net nie ontmoet nie? Ek weet nie, maar hy sal
vir altyd 'n baie special plek in my hart he!
Here help my vriende asseblief? Maak asseblief dat hulle kan lief he? Dat
hul, hul self kan vergewe? Dat hul geluk kan he?
Amen.
Christmas lasts a day, Memories last forever!
In a child's eyes, all Christmas trees are 100 feet tall!
Boys can never have too many cars!
Girls will be Girls!
Remember the fun, remember tge giggles!
The Lord gave us this day!
Its like opening up Christmas presents on that special day!
Its like in blocks! Here they are (they are not in order!)
Work:
I don't care actually. Its wrong, I know that! I decided to be the puppet
she wants! Its all about how I feel inside myself, right? I won't let them
get me down, I'm done with that.
Family:
All of them is on holiday! My Dad is somewhere in the Kruger National park,
my Mom, Oupa, C and J, is on their way to the sea...lucky! I will miss
them!
BFF:
I can't remember the last time I saw her this excited and happy! It makes
me feel happy!
Far-away friend:
O! This is making me very happpy! Because the far-away will be a few
thousand miles less, as from tomorrow, for a few days! I'm excited! And
looking forward to it!!
Lord, please give me the courage, strength and patience I need today? I
need to get out of there. I need to be happy earning a living again?
Thank you Lord for guarding my tongue yesterday! Please help me through
this?
Amen!
Well this morning I'm excited, happy and looking forward to a few things!
My family is ok again! It took a lot of hard words and facts to tell them
that they must stop their crap! Hopefully they will get over all their hang
ups and move on. I believe the Lord above will help them with that!
My far-away friend is coming to SA!! This is something I've been looking
forward to for a long time! I can't wait to meet him! His daughter can't
contain herself, she is so excited!
I know Ash's will happen soon!
I've got a new phone, that is working properly, without hanging most of the
time!
I've got an awesome God!
Today is going to be a good day!
If I can start with my family...
My Mom and Sister is not talking to each other again! My Mom is trying her
best, my sister is giving her grief! Urgh! C is turning into this very
'hard' person! What should I do to explain to her that what she's doing is
so so wrong? I understand she went through a lot these past three years,
since her divorce, but why treat my Mom this way? If there is one person
that stood by her through all of this - its my Mom! My Mom is heartbroken!
My Sister is selfish (I think that is how I see it)
They are going on holiday on Thursday, and I pray that they will be safe.
Please Lord, keep them safe?
My BFF is sick, had to rush her to hospital last night! I got such a
fright! All I can say is: Thank God she is feeling a bit better this
morning. She is very important to me, and I hate seeing her sick!
I hope my far-away-friend had a good night's rest. He is very important and
special to me! Lord, please be with him every single moment?
Amen!
I've been dreaming a lot lately, maybe its my inner self wanting something
and my brain telling me to make my dreams come true?
The weather is still gloomy! Rain clouds all over...
O wait! Urgh! I'm working tomorrow!
Except ...
Ash's is postponed, so I need to wrap my mind around that. But I believe
that is part of God's plan. So, to wait is not fun at all, but I will do
just that...wait.
It is still overcast and smelling like rain - I hate driving in rain!
I'm looking forward to do some Christmas shopping, even tho my two best
friends don't like Christmas! They must expect gifts under the tree!
So - vatso katvis!
Landung!
Then came the phone call from my Dad...
He went to the shop last night, because he is in Benoni for business.
And - BANG! Here I am all confused again! Urgh! Urgh!
I feel like crying!
Or wait - I did that already!
Now he told me that he doesn't think I will be able to do my theme
evenings, because there is no business there at night and that he wants me
to phone the agent to tell him I want a six months trail!
What must I do?
Lord please help me again?
Please?
There's a few clouds around so hopefully we are getting some rain...
Ash's is happening! I'm resigning 26 November!
THAT's even HOTTER! Hehehehe!
Its really good:
Apply everyday. Your skin will just lap it up.
In life you do not harm what you love and respect.
You nurture it, treat it gently and let it be.
Verse: James 1:17
Every GOOD gift and every PERFECT gift is from above!
- God has many good things in store for you.
- Can you think of things that God has done for you?
- We must be thankful for what God has done for us.
- At the same time we must expect much more!
DECLARATION: I declare that every good gift comes from my Heavenly Father
and He does not change like a shifting shadow. My Heavenly Father has good
things in store for me!
Yesterday morning was a record for me, I got up at 5:10...to leave for work
at 5:30? Well it seems it can be done.
Where does the busy-ness come from?
Let me explain. It seems like I found a shop and a helpful letting agent!
If all goes well, I think I will be resigning 1 December, to open shop in
February 2011.
There is 101 things to do still, but I believe with the power of the Lord
above all will work out just fine!
I'm still nervous and scared, but that is something I must get used to, ja?
I miss my far-away friend! :( He is very busy and a bit preoccupied, but I
do understand that he is also tired and running a company is not a piece of
cake. I'm inviting him to dinner tonight, and hopefully he can relax and
get away from it all for a while.....
I'm off to work!
PS: Alles gaan uitwerk! Want ons het 'n goeie God!!!
Be of good courage, and He (The Lord) will strengthen your heart!
- Trust in the Lord.
- Have faith, do not despair.
- Be brave and courageous.
- And HE will strengthen your heart.
PRAYER: Lord, as I embrace this new day, help me to be strong and to take
heart. Thank You that You will come alongside me and strengthen my heart.
Amen.
We all have them! We all wish we could find a way to avoid them! In general
we just don't want them...
But - Reality Check? Here we are! And it is with us...
I need a whole week to tell you about mine. Since I have the time now I can
just as well scribble down a few, so here goes.
Fears 101:
- Losing my family
- Losing my two dearest friends
- Unhappiness
- The 'Unknown'
- Change
- To not be loved
- To be alone
- Moths!
- Dentist
- etc etc etc
Hang-Up's 101 (or rather 1001)
- Not knowing how people feel
- To be kept in the dark
- Not to know how to fix someone
- Not to know how to fix some things
- Sniffing
- A Mess (of things or feelings)
- etc etc etc
Well these lists can go on for a very long time, but I would like not to
bore the people reading this, right?
Yes - Right!
I want to tell my dearest friends that without the fears and the hang-up's
we will be perfect, right? And how boring will life be if we were?
BUT we need to sometimes just close our eyes and take that step. Face that
moth! Go to the dentist, to fix that hole!
Believe me when I tell you this, because I must do it to.
God is good!
God bless you!
He will ensure that everything will work out just fine!
Amen....
My far-away friend told me to do the positive thinking thing, and I'm going
to try that, as soon as I sleep for six hours!
The thing is, I have all these things running through my mind at the same
time. Not that, that is a bad thing!
It was the first people we spoke to that was really helpful, as well!
Please Lord that this be it?
Some other 'better' stuff:
- it is pouring down with rain so it helps with the humidity!
- I bought two new books!
- my friend went proper food shopping today!
- and again (sorry have to say it) I think I found the Ash's location
today!
Some 'un-better' stuff:
- My friends still did not talk to each other!
PS: I know un-better is not a word!
At least we don't have to drive for hours today...
The letting agent phoned to put a damper on my excitement. Jip, they don't
want Ash's in their shopping centre, so I really don't know what to do! Do
I look for another location? Where do I look for another location? So many
thoughts running through my mind, it's confusing.
I will not give up today - I made that decision!
I'm not the giving up type of person, I will follow my dream...or will I? I
don't know yet!
Its been days since I heard from my far-away-friend. I truly hope he is ok?
I won't pressure him in any way, because I think he needs time... My
prayers are with you D!
I miss you...
I'm off to pack the last things, shower and then hit the way home.
Maybe I will go look for a new location for Ash's?
Ek dink dis seker maar net hoe ek aanmekaar gesit is. Ek gee om, ek doen.
Ek dink ook dat hy met die hulp van ons Hemelse Vader, deur al hierdie
dinge sal kan werk.
Ek hou nie daarvan dat hy dit nodig gesien het om vir ons te jok nie, maar
omdat ek so baie omgee, verstaan ek.
Die gebed in my hart vanoggend is dat hy ok sal wees, dat hy sal kans sien
om hierdie stap in sy lewe te neem om weer in SA te kom kuier. Dat die
spoke en die hartseer en kwaad is sy lewe iets van die verlede kan wees.
Dat hy kan gelukkig wees en weer kan kans sien om werklik te kan lewe, en
die mense om hom, kans te gee om te wys dat hul vergewe en vergeet.
Ek hoop en vertrou met al my hart, ek doen.
Sjoe, ek is a redelike pissie vanoggend en ek wil so graag beter voel, ek
wil! Ek is op vakansie, flip!
Here asseblief verhoor my gebede?
Amen
Got up this morning at 5am...with a lightness in my chest saying we are off
on holiday!
Then the mood continued, up to the point where we got to our destination -
REALITY CHECK! Urgh!
The place we arrived at was a place you can use for basic training, yes,
when you want to do army training. Bad, real bad...
First of all there are rocks and stones! Lots of it! The log cabin that was
supposed to be the accommodation had two beds in, if you can call them
that? No stove! Jip, no stove. The swimming pool was a bigger shock - it
looked like a drinking hole for animals.
So what do we do? We paid for it, and of course it was hard earned money...
So we phone the owner, give him one big soppy story and ask for our money
back. Of course he tells us he can't do that. We lose R500, and leave!
To cut a verrryyy loooong story short:
We took the money we got back and eventually found a place about 50km
further!
Our mini vacation turned into a two and a half day trip, but at least we
are in a decent place, with a proper pool and beds!
Thank you Lord that we are safe and that we can have this extra mini
vacation, Amen!
PS: everything will be ok! Amen!
PSS for D: don't you dare to cancel your trip here, we understand your
obligations, so we see this as a postponement, not a cancellation, ja?
We are leaving for a small vacation tomorrow, and I must say, I'm really
looking forward to it. Wish we could make it longer.
I think I'm getting old! Why do I say that? I've never been to the doctor
so many times in my life before, that's why...What I am grateful for is
that it's not my heart going all haywire! Thank God for that!
Then there is some light at the end of a very long career. Hopefully I will
know about Ash's by Monday.. Please pray with me that this new venture of
mine is going to work out? That it is in God's plan?
I miss my far-away friend! His been in another country, and I miss our
chats and jokes! I do! :(
At least things are quiet and relaxed at home. Jayden is getting cuter by
the day, Mom is well, Oupa is well, Charnell is a bit grumpy and in one of
'those' moods - but I'm sure she will get over it soon!
We have Jayden's first school concert today! I'm very curious to see it,
and excited. Then I'm off to a wedding, now that is not something I'm
looking forward to, urgh, I can't remember the last time I saw these
people!
Watch this space for news and photos of the vacation, ja? I will try to get
photos up - but I'm a bit technological impaired, hehehehe!
It smells clean and fresh!
It's as if the rain washes away our doubts, isn't it?
I believe that I will get an answer before we go on holiday!
Please God? Can I pls get an answer?
Sleep tight!
I'm most propably going to fall asleep at my desk, at 11am...because by
then I've put in a whole day.
Well I'm done and ready to leave for work! Showered, makeup'd and hair
done...
I think its the nervousness to hear the answer for Ash's, jip, that is it!
When will they let me know? Will they let me know? Can they pls let me
know?
I will keep you posted, ja?
I really don't like going to weddings! I realized this again this weekend.
It is very boring affairs don't you think? The last wedding I really
enjoyed was my sister's and that was nearly 12 years ago. And to top it all
off, I've got to attend another one this weekend...urgh!
Things I'm looking forward to? A lo actually...
My far-away-friend is coming for a visit, can't wait to meet him! J is
coming home tonight! We are going on Holiday! And, if all goes well, I will
know about the shop today or tomorrow, or hopefully in this week...
I've got soooo much to be thankful for! Thank you God for that! Thank you
that I'm free to ask You for Your help! Amen.
Alles gaan uitwerk! As daar een ding is waarvan ek doodseker is, is dit,
dit!
Jy het 'n mooi toekoms wat voorle! Die Here wil he jy moet lewe vir vandag,
nie vir gister nie.
Jy het 'n man in jou lewe wat vreeslik baie lief is vir jou en ek dink dis
tyd dat jy hom die kans moet gee om vir jou die Pa te wees wat jy verdien.
Hy wil daar wees vir jou en jou die liefde en geduld gee wat jy verdien.
Dis nie reg wat daardie ander mense aan jou doen nie! Dit is nie die Here
wat deur hulle werk nie, ek glo in my hart dis net om hulle eie ego's te
streel!
Ek weet jy wag vir bevestiging van die Here! Dit is tyd om hulle te laat
gaan. Dis maar net wat ek dink.
Hulle veroorsaak dat jy nie kan aanbeweeg nie. Hulle veroorsaak dat jy
jouself bevraagteken, en hulle veroorsaak dat jy nie vertrou in ander mense
nie. Bedoelende dat jy nie liefde vrylik kan gee nie.
Ek is jammer as ek te hard voorkom! Ek is jammer dat jy so moes grootword!
Ek is jammer dat jy so moet seerkry!
MAAR daar is 'n toekoms vir jou met mense wat omgee, wat lief is vir jou en
wat baie graag daai leemte wil vul!
Die Here sal alles laat uitwerk!
Lafsu
To love like Jesus is the most important characteristic:
Your love should be patient and kind, it should not boast or be jealous or
keep record of wrongs. What shall remain until the end is faith, hope and
love. But the greatest of these is love.
Found this in: The Bible in 366 days for woman (Nina Smit)
I have a wonderful family, even tho they drive me crazy at times. They have
good intentions, they care and love. they fight for the right reasons, or
sometimes they just fight to get their points across. Sometimes they are
demanding...but I do love them, just the way they are.
I have wonderful friends! I don't think they know how special they are to
me. I am thankful for their support, their encouragement and every single
thing they do to make me 'feel'!
Even tho I don't enjoy my job anymore, I am thankful to have one!
I am thankful for our wonderful, amazing God! He is there for me all the
way, He gives and listens! He answers my prayers, and help me through each
day!
Well, overall I'm very thankful this morning!
Maybe I'm ready for the old age home?
Its gonna be a long day, the way I feel now...
As I said in previous blogs, the court case went well! As my friends told
me, God will answer our prayers, and He did!
J is now going to his father every Wednesday and every second weekend, its
so much better than every second week! We will not have him with us this
Christmas, but we can't have everything we want, ja?
My BFF has been quiet. Do I like it? No I don't. She's been having it bad
at work, and things are not getting better. But I know she will get out of
there, soon! Everything will work out, God gave you, your answer, and He
will provide. I know you are lonely, and I wish I could spend more time
with you - but my family is very demanding! I know you understand, but
still, I wish I could be there for you, more!
I'm so happy that my far-away friend is doing better! It is wonderful to
know he is part of my life, and I want to thank him for all his prayers!
For being my shoulder to cry on, for the laughs and for being there for me.
I've got wonderful friends! And I thank God for them every single day!
The board is sitting with my proposal for Ash's on Monday. That will be the
answer. If I'm going ahead with the book lounge or not. I'm nervous, its a
big step in my life - but I know I can make it work! I've got a support
system that will not let me down! God, family, friends!
God Bless all the people I love!
PS: apologies if I'm repeating myself in my blogs, but like they say, its
supposed to be a place where I can write down what I feel...
Your boss emails you at 4:30 in the morning! Demanding answers, asking
questions and just working on your nerves in general!
I feel sick...sore all over! Urgh! I think its my thyroid doing its thing
again... :(
Lord, please let me get that shop? Please help me to get my own thing
going? Please?
I suppose I need to find out how to register a business? And then this:
I need slogans. Jip, of all the things I can think about it's this.
- For the love of reading
- Booklovers never go to bed alone
- Nothing beats the smell of a book
- Leave me alone, I'm reading
- A book is like a good friend
- Dreams=Books
- For the love of happy endings!
- Shhhhh, I'm reading
- Books, Coffee?
- Bookworms do it inside pages
- Once upon a time...
- The End...Nahhh!
- Movies? No let's read!
What do you think?
The court case is over!
And it's good news!
Lord, thank You for answering our prayers, thank You for being there for us
all, every single day. Amen!
Well, we had some very good news tonight! It seems that things are going to
work out ok! The ex may agree that he will see our little boy once a week
and every second weekend.
And who can we thank? God of course! Our Heavenly Father!
I will keep you updated on the progress...
I want to thank my two wonderful friends for all their prayers and support!
I also want to thank them for being there for me and my family! Their
support and prayers help soo much!
I've been grumpy and a bit of a cow! I'm sorry if I hurt you! I love you!
Dear God, thank you for answering our prayers and thank You for not leaving
us. Lord, I pray tonight for my sister and her little boy, so that
everything will be wrapped up tomorrow? That the fights and ugliness can be
sorted out once and for all? I also want to thank You for my dear friends.
Please keep them safe and happy? They mean so much to me!
Amen!
Please, please pray for them? The final court case is tomorrow morning at
10!
Lord,we need you, please help us?
Amen!
Dis seker maar ook hoe ek voel binnekant my hart.
Wat as ek nie hierdie nice mens is wat my vriende dink ek is nie? Wat as
hulle eintlik gatvol is vir my en my boring vind? Al wat ek tog oor praat
die afgelope paar weke is boeke, winkels, en is dit die regte ding! Ek sal
redelik gatvol wees vir myself, as die rolle omgedraai was, ne?
Ek het vandag 'n redelike stupid dag gehad. Stupid in die opsig van:
emosies. Ek weet nie wat eintlik met my aangaan nie. Dis soos ek se:
stupid. Ek kan dit nie eers verduidelik op hierdie blog nie.
Miskien is dit maar net dat ek so graag alles wil fix? Dat alles net sal
reg wees as ek een oggend wakker word? Ek weet nie!
Ek ken redelik genoeg mense, ja, ek sal seker as ek 'n gastelys maak,
genoeg mense daar he, om die saal vol te maak, maar ek het werklik waar net
twee vriende. My BFF en die ver-weg ene! Ek is so vreeslik lief vir hulle,
ek glo nie hulle dink so nie, maar ek doen!
Al wat ek vir hulle wil he, is mooi dinge!
En natuurlik dat ons vriende kan wees vir altyd...
Ek is jammer ek is so a depro drama queen! Ek kry myself seker maar 'n
bietjie jammer...
My sussie se hofsaak is Dinsdag..help asseblief bid? Vra asseblief ons
Hemelse Vader dat haar seuntjie nie van haar af sal weggevat word nie?
Groot seblief?
Die amazing ding is: ons het 'n baie groot God! En ek glo en vertrou dat
alles gaan uitwerk! Dit gaan!
The courtcase is on Tuesday...
Can I pls ask everyone reading this to pray for my sister and her little
boy?
Lord, please help us? Please don't let them take our little boy? Please
help us?
Amen!
"For making me crazy about him when I knew it was wrong. He was the worst
kind of wrong. He was so wrong it felt right, and that made me feel
completely out of control"
Good, ja?
But where to start?
Ash's/Ashes is coming along! Got great friends that are helping me with so
much. Their opinions are so important to me! And I treasure each and every
suggestion/comment/criticism/complement they give - I want to say thank
you!
For my BFF:
Everything will work out just fine! God is almighty and He will make things
work out in His plan! Lafsu! The holiday is around the corner and its going
to be a lot of fun...
For my far-away-friend:
God is our ultimate helper! Don't be so hard on yourself? Things are going
well, I believe that. I'm here for you always! Thank you for being there
for me too! Lafsu!
For C:
Don't let that man upset you! God will help you! He will keep your little
boy with you - always. Don't let that man try to rule your life, God is in
control! Love you..
About me:
I'm tired, but I'm ok!
I'm worried, but I know God is in control!
I've got a headache, but at least I've got grandpa's (hehehehe)
On a serious note:
I love all these wonderful people in my life, because God sent them my
way...
Thank you Lord!
We found an awesome shopping centre! And guess what? It is less than half
the price of the other one I had in mind! Amazing ne? And it is so much
better!
It seems I got excited for nothing the other evening, when about 5 drops of
rain fell... So, there still no rain, and the heat is terrible. I'm sure
the rain is around the corner.
My BFF had her hearing yesterday :( , Cruella was a ray of sunlight, like
usual! My friend - everything will be okay! I promise! God will look after
you, and keep you safe...
He never leaves us!
I can sit here and blog the whole day, but I need to leave for work...
Laf U all!
He told me in a very straightforward manner that Ashes is a bad idea, that
I'm going to waste my money, and waste a lot more than I know!
Why did I get that call? What must I think now? I. Don't.Know!
I'm on my way to work! Another day in a place where ethics flew out the
window a long time ago!
I really can't work there no more! I've had it!
Please Lord, help me? What should I do?
Please?
So, I think I got some sort of confirmation today! Thank you Lord! I'm sure
I need some more, so I will be patient.
I forgot about a few things, that's why I had to talk to my Dad. He is all
for it, so by the way!
So, I'm excited! I can make this work with an Awesome God, family and very
dear friends...
Imagine a lounge/study setup? With wingback chairs, small coffee tables,
small reading lamps and divine coffee. My Dad also suggested I sell
paintings. I think that can work - you? There is always an artist somewhere
that wants to start somewhere, so maybe Ash's is the place for them.
There'll be book clubs, kids story time, and music Sundays! My BFF will
just have to get over her stage fright!
So from now on it's marketing, cost budgets and estimating! O dear!
I want to talk to my far-away-friend too.... Got sooo much to tell him!
This has been a dream for a very long time. I want this and I think I need
this. I'm so bored at work, wish I could explain it to someone. I feel as
if I don't use my brain anymore, because I've been in every situation there
could be! Yes! I believe that I've been there, done that and got a few
T-shirts to prove it.
BUT...
I'm not doing this if it's not part of God's plan! I need to do this with
Him, because without him I can't succeed. And I MUST succeed!
I know this whole concept can work, because I would love it if there could
be a place where I could go, to buy my fav past-times...
Books and Coffee!
I think I'm a bit scared, that's all.
I believe I will get my answer...I must just give it time.
The significance of man is not what he attains, but rather in what he longs
to attain - Kahlil Gibran
Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of
human existence - Aristotle
Love begins at home, and it is not how much we do..but how much love we put
in that action - Mother Teresa
When you think about it,what other choice is there but to hope? We have two
options, medically and emotionally: Give up or fight like hell - Lance
Armstrong
People can be so unfair sometimes, don't you think?
Don't ask me for my opinion if it doesn't matter anyway! Its not what you
can do, its all about seeing how many times you can grovel!
I.don't.brown-nose! I'm not brought up that way!
The worst of all is that they will ask you if you will be able to be
objective! How the flip?! Its my job, and I know how to do it!!
I want to get out! I really do!
I also know that I'm shopping more, and reading less, but I'm sure I will
get to reading - I do love books!
I stopped in front of the 'shop to let'. Yes, the shop that will be perfect
for my dream! I wish I could just jump in and do it? I wish I could do it
today, start it today. It will be worth every drop of sweat and no sleep
and more to worry about..
I also got two new items for rehab, since I'm doing it so much, I thought
it would be nice, to do it with the proper rehab equipment.
My friend, the far away friend, made me so happy two days ago! I can't
explain how good it feels to see his name in my inbox again! It feels like
he's holding back a bit and being a bit distant - but I will give him the
time and space he needs..as long as he's happy, I'm happy.. I do miss him!
My BFF, is most probably sleeping..I kept her awake last night with all my
babble! We spent the day watching movies, it was fun, but I don't want to
look at another screen for at least a month! Hehehe! It was fun, but my
eyes feel square.. Thanx for being my BFF and being there for me, like you
are! Remember: alles gaan uitwerk..lafsu!
Ok, enough for the day...I'm off to do rehab!
This is an article in our newspaper this morning.
Daar's geen teenvoeter vir liefde nie, daardie soort waarvan Paulus in sy
briewe skryf. Hierdie liefde is natuurlik nie net 'n versameling
goedvoel-emosies nie. Die Here se soort liefde word net in aksie gesien en
gevoel.
Een van die kortpaaie na egte omgee is om gedurig die regte woorde in jou
hart en op jou tong te laai.
Jy moet veral twee frases goed ken en ook reg gebruik. Frase 1: 'Baie
dankie' Frase 2: 'Ek is jammer'
Daar's min woorde wat meer brug-boukrag het as die woord: 'Dankie'
Jammerse-krag werk weer as jy weet jy is verkeerd en dit erken.
Eenvoudige, maar kragtige taal wys dat jy God en ander respekteer en dat jy
nooit dink jy's te groot in jou eie oe nie.
I'm writing this for my two friends...
We all make mistakes, and nobody knows that better than I do. We say and do
stuff, we think and we try stuff...wish we could turn back time? Jip, that
will be great! But that is one thing we can't do..
Since we all make mistakes and some wrong decisions, who are we to hold it
against the other? Friends stick together, and I know we can and will work
this out. We need to stop apologizing all the time...
I want to tell you that everything will work out! We serve an Almighty God
and He will be with us - always!
I Love you both!
I think I wrote something on my blog, about these a few days, maybe a week,
ago.
What is means to me?
Well, HOPE: there's always Hope, because we serve an Almighty God, He
creates hope in us, so we have something to look forward to. I've got Hope!
I will not ever stop with this one...
Then, PEACE: this is what I strive for! Knowing in my heart that everything
will work out just fine. Peace also meaning that we can all live together
in peace, without all the hate and ugliness in this very hard world! God
gives us Peace, because He answers our prayers...
Last but not least, LOVE: well we all got so much of this to give! Because
our Lord is Love! With love we can face a lot of things, with Love, peace
and hope is nothing, that being my own opinion, of course...
I want to thank God for these!
I know He will answers my prayers, because of His promise, of Hope, Peace
and Love!
Have a good day, and remember that everything will work out just fine...
"A cup of coffee shared with a friend is happiness tasted and time well
spent"
It was a good, busy weekend. Going to take a good long soak as soon as I'm
home.
Had dinner with the family on Friday...went to a farm for a worship
session! It was amazing! Even though we drove home, on an empty tank! Thank
goodness we found petrol in the middle of nowhere...
Went to church this morning, finished up the pool! Jip, the pool is ready
for water... Did some painting and now I'm lying on my friend's bed having
a cup of coffee..
it was good to talk to my friend, the far away friend - even if it was a
few words...
Let me go home!
Read: Ps 42 1-3, 5-8, 11
I heard from my friend! It was good! I just don't understand why he is not
talking to me? Maybe he's not ready? It was really, really good to hear
from him, even tho we only shared about 10 words in total.
Like I said, I'm busy with rehab, I don't think I will ever find any
pleasure in it at all... The thing is, the 'mountain' is growing every
week. But a woman's gotta do, what a woman's gotta do.
My BFF is lonely! I feel so hopeless sometimes... But she is on the road to
recovery and that is the most important thing of all. She made some good
decisions, and I know she will stick to them!
So this blog was mostly about my dear friends, they are important to me!
And that is what I wanted to say...
Everything will work out just fine!
Laf U two!
I made a cup of coffee, so after that I would really like to sleep.
Funny, huh?
Today was good - productive!
Ordered some new Vamp books! I'm excited for Dark Flame, the new addition
to the Immortals series... Then there is a new series, California
something. A different type of Vamps. Now I must just start reading
again...
I miss my friend, the one that's far away... I was dusting my books, and
saw a small book, that used to be his. I hope he is ok and doing well.
Well, I better go sleep....
May God protect you all! Sleep tight!
Something I read:
God's perfect plan for you:
God wants His chlidren to prosper, have hope, and a bright future. If you
call out to Him, He will listen, if you seek him, you will find Him. God
wants to give you hope for a heavenly future with Him.
Read: Jer 29:11-14
When hope seems lost:
Jeremiah felt that God left him to walk with no light, and that God didn't
want to answer his prayers. He felt completely hopeless. In times of
hardship we might also feel that God is far away, but He will never leave
you on your own.
Hope in God:
Like Jeremiah, you will also discover that God is faithful. He never stops
caring about you. In times of hardship you only have to wait patiently and
pray for God to save you - He always will. Return to Him!
Sleep tight...
Work was hectic again. It seems like I can't get anything done, everything
is half way done! I've got one more day, then I need to be done with all my
admin - really, its time. After that its performance discussions, and
believe me, that can take forever!
Then there's my BFF! The J thing is bothering her, even though she didn't
say anything. I know her... Its not that easy just to let go, is it?
At home everything is still full of dust! Urgh! The pool is still not done,
so I don't think there's going to be any swimming this summer...hehe. The
blue dust is getting out of hand now! If I could sell it - I'd be a
millionaire.
Then there's ME! I'm weird, I feel weird. Wish I could explain it to you.
I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm not depressed or stessed. It feels like I
lost some feelings, you know? Ever had that? That the world is on a
completely different planet to yours. Weird, I tell you...
BUT we've got a wonderful God! He will make everything work out just fine!
I believe that!
There's a Bible verse that says: Now these three remains love, hope and
peace...
And I believe that is my motto from now on!
Tomorrow is going to be a good day
God will take care of it..
God bless and sweet dreams
The best and most beautiful things in the world can not be seen, nor
touched...
But are felt in the heart.
A busy week ahead, so there's no time to sulk about the weekend that's
over.
My BFF did this 'thing', I'm worried about it... I'm sure she will make the
right decision about it, when the time comes. It is something everyone
wants, but I'm just scared she is going back to trying to safe the world? I
will support her 100%, if that is what she wants - I will stick by her!
Did some retail therapy yesterday, spend much too much money, that I don't
have. BUT it was fun. Church was good too, my friend came along and I think
she likes this church, so maybe she will go with every Sunday?
We lost another fish yesterday...don't know why they keep on dying!
Well that's me for this morning.
Enjoy!
Remember: God answers our prayers! Everything will work out!
A message from God:
In answer to Daniel's prayer of confession, God sent the angel Gabriel to
Daniel with the message that his prayer had already been answered. He also
assured Daniel that he could stop worrying and be strong, because God loved
him. When you pray sincerely, God listens and answers your prayers.
To read: Daniel 9:18-19
*I found this in The Bible in 366 days for women*
Goodnight... God bless!
Here, ek wil bid vanoggend dat U asseblief ons gebede sal verhoor? Dat U
ons sal help?
Here dit voel asof ons tot stilstand gekom het, Here dit voel asof daar 'n
gat uit ons harte geruk is...
Help ons asseblief?
Here bring hom vit ons terug? Groot asseblief Here? Ons is lief vir hom en
ons wil graag 'n deel van sy lewe wees...
Here, ek bid dit in U naam.
Amen
My friend went for her check up today, I know she will be fine! I hope the
results are back asap...
Back to work tomorrow, looking forward to it! Amazing what a few days away
can do for a person.
Here is something I read:
Hold on to God's commandments and you will live a full life. Put all your
trust in Him, and don't rely on your own insight. Ask for His will in all
that you do so that He can bless you and show you the path of life.
So that is me for today...
Alles gaan uitwerk!
It was a good weekend, nice and relaxing. Good to spend some time with the
family, away from the normal routine. Lord, please be with my family? My
sister and her little boy?
I'm worried about my friend...she said she is feeling sick. Hopefully it is
nothing serious! Its her doctor's appointment tomorrow, please keep her in
your prayers? I'm sure everything will be ok! Amen!
Finished the packing, so we can be on our way early...
I miss my friends! The BFF at home and my friend far away...hope he is
ok...
They are both in my prayers tonight, well, actually they are always in my
prayers...
At least I'm nearly done with Morganville III... Hopefully I can get it
done tonight. I don't know why I'm battling to read. Urgh! I love reading
and all of a sudden, this 'reading-block'...
Well, today was extremely hot! At least I lost my very white winter legs
and arms, got a tan! Even tho I'm a bit tender after all that sun.
The game drive was good! Saw my fav animal, yes, the giraffe. Took some
lovely photos. A Eland(I think its called an Onyx/Oryx?) Came for a
'visit'...a flippen HUGE animal! What else did we see? Hornbulls, Zebra,
Impala, Kudu, etc!
Had a braai...and now I'm sitting, staring at the stars. Just a pity I'm
not seeing any shooting stars.. Not that I believe in any of that, mind
you!
I'm tired, but I know I won't be able to go to bed this early...I was awake
at 4am, so there's no way I'm sleeping now.
Have a good night all....
xxx
Sitting on the stoep, I can see thousands of stars and its soo quiet. I'm
at one of my fav places!
All I can hear is the insects.
I needed this, I know that now...was not in the mood to come this weekend,
but now I'm glad I did.
A Kudu came for a visit! amazing...she ate out of my hand! First time I
ever experienced it! Her grey tongue, licking up pieces of tomato!
Its wonderful how close I feel to God tonight...sitting here in the
bushveld, with no sirens, or music, I can't even hear other people, except
my sister singing to her son!
Well I just love Dikhololo! Everyone must visit it at least once in their
lifetime...
Going on a game drive at sunrise - anyone want to join me?
Going to try reading Morganville now...I'm still in book 3, on the same
page...for the past month!
Sleep tight...
Why measure and analyse everthing that is happening...
We can just love each other, with no complications! It's that simple...
We've got soo much love inside ourselves, let's just share it...
Let's just be ourselves and stop being this creatures that want to live in
the past!
Family, is family - even tho they are not linked by blood, there's some
people with less than no-one.
WE are their someone!
WE don't have to complicate things, by always trying to pick the best horse
in this life race...
With and through God all things are possible.
That is why we must share this love in this complicated world!
Well, I'm really looking forward to the first rain, the first
thunderstorm...
I celebrated my 20 year long service at work today...yes, I can't believe
it either! Got the certificate and the flowers (I don't like flowers,grrrr,
but its the thought that counts! My team also made the day special - thanx
guys!
Busy with housework, and believe me its not good, because I've got so much
time to remember...miss him....yes I still do. Stupid huh?
Going to pack for the weekend when I'm done! Looking forward to spend some
quality time with a book..
And the family!
Feeling a bit better today, its just the sharp pains I get! Urgh! But I'm
sure I will be fine in no time.
The ex-brother-in-law giving my sister grief again... Stupid! Wish he will
just leave them alone!
Smoke break over...see later!
Sweet dreams...
Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself...I don't know but this feeling
must go away soon...this flippen pain!
I had a goodbye dinner for my aunt, together with the family...food was
good. A very busy day at work, preparing for the audit tomorrow, etc.
Sorry, not in the mood to write anything else down...
I'm off to bed...
Work was busy, except for a 25 year old temper-throwing-man, I had a good
day. It was busy, thank goodness for that...
I still miss him, I'm sure that will never go away, but remember, I miss
his friendship, most of all...
Then as we left the office, Felix was collecting a delivery from the
pharmacy, when she tripped and fell! Sorry!!! But I couldn't help myself!!
I laughed for the first time in a week! I could feel tears running down my
cheeks, that is how hard I laughed...shame! Her poor hands and knees are
scraped bad, but at least she laughed as well! Thank you Felix for that!
Even tho I know you are in pain...:(
Everything will work out! Everything!
My sister's car broke down today! Urgh! So she's using my car tomorrow
until they can fix hers, so no going out for lunch to go buy that Bible I
want...
I decided to do rehab twice a week from this week, so I'm off to do that...
It became a place where I wrote down a whole lot of things, things that is
no longer applicable...but in a good way!
Today is the start of new things...
