Love does not put another off balance, or cause another loss of identity,
or anything else that involves a fall.
Love is unconditionally supportive, life enhancing, uplifting and
limitless. If one is truly in love, one rises, expands and unifies!
Sjoe - I want this too!
Verse: 2 Corinthians 4:16
That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are
being renewed every day.
- Our bodies may feel tired but our spirits can be renewed.
- Because of this we do not need to become discouraged.
- Let God come and renew your spirit today.
- When your spirit is renewed by God you have reason to live.
PRAYER: Lord, I pray that You will come and renew my spirit right now. Amen
Life is so short. That was the first thought that popped into my head as I
woke up this morning.
Why I feel like this, I don't know really.
But....
We have an awesome God! He will hear my prayers, and help me!
Then...
I miss my far-away friend!
But the Jack was nice...
Now we sit with a very dirty house, and the smell of left over braai.
At least there's not that much damage! Except for my BFF breaking a
window...hehe!
And today? We are maybe getting my tattoo and going to the movies - Harry
Potter....
That's me for today...
Well I'm not into one night stands and sex with men I don't know. I've been
there, done that. Done that a long time ago, before I realized there are
consequences for having fun, hot casual sex!
But I can do something about the tattoo.. I'm scared, I don't like pain
(yes, I don't think pain is a kick)..
So maybe that is on my agenda for today?
The only problem is, that I have a huge blue bruise where I want my tattoo!
Now I must decide between hot and steamy, and, pain and a mark for life....
Wat as ek net meer kan doen? Dinge kan regmaak sodat almal om my gelukkig
kan wees? Sou nice gewees het!
My BFF sny nie meer nie, dis wonderlik! Sy praat ten minste met my, al
baklei ons deesdae soos kat en hond. Ons maak ten minste op. Ek dank die
Here vir haar! As ek op my analising spree gaan, dan sit sy maar rustig en
probeer die regte dinge doen en praat...
Ek wens ek kon my far-away vriend ook help. Miskien is ek dalk te veel in
sy spasie? Miskien wil hy my net nie ontmoet nie? Ek weet nie, maar hy sal
vir altyd 'n baie special plek in my hart he!
Here help my vriende asseblief? Maak asseblief dat hulle kan lief he? Dat
hul, hul self kan vergewe? Dat hul geluk kan he?
Amen.
Christmas lasts a day, Memories last forever!
In a child's eyes, all Christmas trees are 100 feet tall!
Boys can never have too many cars!
Girls will be Girls!
Remember the fun, remember tge giggles!
The Lord gave us this day!
Its like opening up Christmas presents on that special day!
Its like in blocks! Here they are (they are not in order!)
Work:
I don't care actually. Its wrong, I know that! I decided to be the puppet
she wants! Its all about how I feel inside myself, right? I won't let them
get me down, I'm done with that.
Family:
All of them is on holiday! My Dad is somewhere in the Kruger National park,
my Mom, Oupa, C and J, is on their way to the sea...lucky! I will miss
them!
BFF:
I can't remember the last time I saw her this excited and happy! It makes
me feel happy!
Far-away friend:
O! This is making me very happpy! Because the far-away will be a few
thousand miles less, as from tomorrow, for a few days! I'm excited! And
looking forward to it!!
Lord, please give me the courage, strength and patience I need today? I
need to get out of there. I need to be happy earning a living again?
Thank you Lord for guarding my tongue yesterday! Please help me through
this?
Amen!
Well this morning I'm excited, happy and looking forward to a few things!
My family is ok again! It took a lot of hard words and facts to tell them
that they must stop their crap! Hopefully they will get over all their hang
ups and move on. I believe the Lord above will help them with that!
My far-away friend is coming to SA!! This is something I've been looking
forward to for a long time! I can't wait to meet him! His daughter can't
contain herself, she is so excited!
I know Ash's will happen soon!
I've got a new phone, that is working properly, without hanging most of the
time!
I've got an awesome God!
Today is going to be a good day!
If I can start with my family...
My Mom and Sister is not talking to each other again! My Mom is trying her
best, my sister is giving her grief! Urgh! C is turning into this very
'hard' person! What should I do to explain to her that what she's doing is
so so wrong? I understand she went through a lot these past three years,
since her divorce, but why treat my Mom this way? If there is one person
that stood by her through all of this - its my Mom! My Mom is heartbroken!
My Sister is selfish (I think that is how I see it)
They are going on holiday on Thursday, and I pray that they will be safe.
Please Lord, keep them safe?
My BFF is sick, had to rush her to hospital last night! I got such a
fright! All I can say is: Thank God she is feeling a bit better this
morning. She is very important to me, and I hate seeing her sick!
I hope my far-away-friend had a good night's rest. He is very important and
special to me! Lord, please be with him every single moment?
Amen!
I've been dreaming a lot lately, maybe its my inner self wanting something
and my brain telling me to make my dreams come true?
The weather is still gloomy! Rain clouds all over...
O wait! Urgh! I'm working tomorrow!
Except ...
Ash's is postponed, so I need to wrap my mind around that. But I believe
that is part of God's plan. So, to wait is not fun at all, but I will do
just that...wait.
It is still overcast and smelling like rain - I hate driving in rain!
I'm looking forward to do some Christmas shopping, even tho my two best
friends don't like Christmas! They must expect gifts under the tree!
So - vatso katvis!
Landung!
Then came the phone call from my Dad...
He went to the shop last night, because he is in Benoni for business.
And - BANG! Here I am all confused again! Urgh! Urgh!
I feel like crying!
Or wait - I did that already!
Now he told me that he doesn't think I will be able to do my theme
evenings, because there is no business there at night and that he wants me
to phone the agent to tell him I want a six months trail!
What must I do?
Lord please help me again?
Please?
There's a few clouds around so hopefully we are getting some rain...
Ash's is happening! I'm resigning 26 November!
THAT's even HOTTER! Hehehehe!
Its really good:
Apply everyday. Your skin will just lap it up.
In life you do not harm what you love and respect.
You nurture it, treat it gently and let it be.
Verse: James 1:17
Every GOOD gift and every PERFECT gift is from above!
- God has many good things in store for you.
- Can you think of things that God has done for you?
- We must be thankful for what God has done for us.
- At the same time we must expect much more!
DECLARATION: I declare that every good gift comes from my Heavenly Father
and He does not change like a shifting shadow. My Heavenly Father has good
things in store for me!
Yesterday morning was a record for me, I got up at 5:10...to leave for work
at 5:30? Well it seems it can be done.
Where does the busy-ness come from?
Let me explain. It seems like I found a shop and a helpful letting agent!
If all goes well, I think I will be resigning 1 December, to open shop in
February 2011.
There is 101 things to do still, but I believe with the power of the Lord
above all will work out just fine!
I'm still nervous and scared, but that is something I must get used to, ja?
I miss my far-away friend! :( He is very busy and a bit preoccupied, but I
do understand that he is also tired and running a company is not a piece of
cake. I'm inviting him to dinner tonight, and hopefully he can relax and
get away from it all for a while.....
I'm off to work!
PS: Alles gaan uitwerk! Want ons het 'n goeie God!!!
Be of good courage, and He (The Lord) will strengthen your heart!
- Trust in the Lord.
- Have faith, do not despair.
- Be brave and courageous.
- And HE will strengthen your heart.
PRAYER: Lord, as I embrace this new day, help me to be strong and to take
heart. Thank You that You will come alongside me and strengthen my heart.
Amen.
We all have them! We all wish we could find a way to avoid them! In general
we just don't want them...
But - Reality Check? Here we are! And it is with us...
I need a whole week to tell you about mine. Since I have the time now I can
just as well scribble down a few, so here goes.
Fears 101:
- Losing my family
- Losing my two dearest friends
- Unhappiness
- The 'Unknown'
- Change
- To not be loved
- To be alone
- Moths!
- Dentist
- etc etc etc
Hang-Up's 101 (or rather 1001)
- Not knowing how people feel
- To be kept in the dark
- Not to know how to fix someone
- Not to know how to fix some things
- Sniffing
- A Mess (of things or feelings)
- etc etc etc
Well these lists can go on for a very long time, but I would like not to
bore the people reading this, right?
Yes - Right!
I want to tell my dearest friends that without the fears and the hang-up's
we will be perfect, right? And how boring will life be if we were?
BUT we need to sometimes just close our eyes and take that step. Face that
moth! Go to the dentist, to fix that hole!
Believe me when I tell you this, because I must do it to.
God is good!
God bless you!
He will ensure that everything will work out just fine!
Amen....
My far-away friend told me to do the positive thinking thing, and I'm going
to try that, as soon as I sleep for six hours!
The thing is, I have all these things running through my mind at the same
time. Not that, that is a bad thing!
It was the first people we spoke to that was really helpful, as well!
Please Lord that this be it?
Some other 'better' stuff:
- it is pouring down with rain so it helps with the humidity!
- I bought two new books!
- my friend went proper food shopping today!
- and again (sorry have to say it) I think I found the Ash's location
today!
Some 'un-better' stuff:
- My friends still did not talk to each other!
PS: I know un-better is not a word!
At least we don't have to drive for hours today...
The letting agent phoned to put a damper on my excitement. Jip, they don't
want Ash's in their shopping centre, so I really don't know what to do! Do
I look for another location? Where do I look for another location? So many
thoughts running through my mind, it's confusing.
I will not give up today - I made that decision!
I'm not the giving up type of person, I will follow my dream...or will I? I
don't know yet!
Its been days since I heard from my far-away-friend. I truly hope he is ok?
I won't pressure him in any way, because I think he needs time... My
prayers are with you D!
I miss you...
I'm off to pack the last things, shower and then hit the way home.
Maybe I will go look for a new location for Ash's?
Ek dink dis seker maar net hoe ek aanmekaar gesit is. Ek gee om, ek doen.
Ek dink ook dat hy met die hulp van ons Hemelse Vader, deur al hierdie
dinge sal kan werk.
Ek hou nie daarvan dat hy dit nodig gesien het om vir ons te jok nie, maar
omdat ek so baie omgee, verstaan ek.
Die gebed in my hart vanoggend is dat hy ok sal wees, dat hy sal kans sien
om hierdie stap in sy lewe te neem om weer in SA te kom kuier. Dat die
spoke en die hartseer en kwaad is sy lewe iets van die verlede kan wees.
Dat hy kan gelukkig wees en weer kan kans sien om werklik te kan lewe, en
die mense om hom, kans te gee om te wys dat hul vergewe en vergeet.
Ek hoop en vertrou met al my hart, ek doen.
Sjoe, ek is a redelike pissie vanoggend en ek wil so graag beter voel, ek
wil! Ek is op vakansie, flip!
Here asseblief verhoor my gebede?
Amen
