What a day...

Let me start with the 'feel good' part of the day, ja?

I while ago I read 'Divergent', and I loved every single page in that book. Then, like usual I realized that the book was part of a trilogy. My BFF sends me the second book, a first edition I might add, and I loved 'Insurgent' more than the first. Now I have to wait another year for the final book, not nice at all. Can't remember why I stopped reading for such a long time, because I realized again today, how much I love to read.

Then all hell brakes loose in my family :(

How one person can be so heartless, I don't know, but who knows, maybe he is doing the right thing? I.don't.know...

Now I can't sleep, because I'm worried, and I'm struggling to work through all the things that happened. One of them is the realization that one day soon, very soon, I won't be able to go to Ouma and Oupa's house anymore, because first of all, they are no longer here, and second, the house will be packed up and sold....

I miss them, and I will miss their 'home' :'(


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Die en daai...

Eks alleen by die huis, ek sukkel deesdae met alleen wees. Dan sit ek hier en mis die mense wat so baie vir my beteken en hulle voel so flippen ver weg. Ja, een van hul is woes ver, die ander net seker so 1300 km?

Ek het nie die werk gekry nie :( Dit was nogal 'n emosionele ding vir my. Ek moet werk kry, en nogal dringend...

Daar is 'n leemte in ons lewens met Oupa wat weg is. Alles voel so deurmekaar. Almal wil alles net probeer regkry, maar tog maak dit als net meer deurmekaar.

Ek is so bang dit skeur ons uitmekaar...

En dis nou net ons vier.


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Ai...

Its been a sad and devastating week...Oupa passed away on Tuesday, and it feels like the bottom of our world dropped away. There is this void in our lives now, and nothing can ever fill it again. I miss him - terribly. It feels unreal, and how do I console my Mom?
My sister's court case is tomorrow... Yes, that's another worry. But I know all will go well.

Lord, You are our rock and Father. Thank you for every new day You give us. Thank you for my family and friends. Please, Jesus, be with my sister tomorrow, and please help her? Please Lord? I ask that You will help my Mom through this time? She is heartbroken...I ask this in Your Name, Amen.

PS: It seems I will be granted an interview....I'm scared and nervous.


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Antwoord...

Ek dink ek het my antwoord gekry vanoggend. Daai gevoel in my maag is daar. Nou net vir die hoop dat daardie mense die winkel sal vat, en natuurlik hoe lank dit nog gaan vat. Ek gaan my kliente woes baie mis, maar ongelukkig betaal hulle nie die huur nie, en hul sit ook nie kos op die tafel nie...

Dis tyd om my swart broeke uit te haal, en my jeans te bere...

Hartseer, maar dit voel reg.


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Ja

Its freezing...the wind is howling outside. And I can't sleep - again...grrrrr!


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Oupa...

Kom nou van die hospitaal af....Oupa is so vreeslik deurmekaar en ongemaklik :(

Dalk is die regte woord, geirriteerd? Ek weet nie...

Ek is baie bekommerd oor hom, dis asof hy nie stabiliseer nie.

Jesus, ek le vanaand my Oupa aan U voete. Maak hom asseblief gesond en spaar hom asseblief vir ons? U is al wat kan help. Amen!


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Shipwreck...

The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small, uninhabited island.

He prayed feverishly for God to rescue him, and every day he scanned the horizon for help, but none seemed forthcoming.

Exhausted, he eventually managed to build a little hut out of driftwood to protect him from the elements, and to store his few possessions. But then one day, after scavenging for food, he arrived home to find his little hut in flames, the smoke rolling up to the sky. The worst had happened; everything was lost.

He was stunned with grief and anger. "God, how could you do this to me!" he cried. Early the next day, however, he was awakened by the sound of a ship that was approaching the island.

It had come to rescue him. "How did you know I was here?" asked the weary man of his rescuers. "We saw your smoke signal," they replied.

It is easy to get discouraged when things are going bad. But we shouldn't lose heart, because God is at work in our lives, even in the midst of pain and suffering. Remember, next time your little hut is burning to the ground...it just may be a smoke signal that summons grace of God.


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Quotes:

"It doesn't matter if the glass is half full or half empty, be thankful that you have a glass and grateful for something in it"

"The hardest part isn't the choosing, its living with the choice you make"

"One of the best feelings in the world is that your presence and absence mean something to someone"


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Before bed, after the weekend...

I'm soo tired, feels like I've been awake for days. Well, I'm not sleeping well, so I decided to go to bed early, for if I wake up in the middle of the night, I did sleep a few winks.

But before I do that...

Had J's birthday party, it was a huge success, he is turning 5 years old tomorrow, I can't thank God enough for him.

Oupa is even worse than yesterday...It's breaking my heart to see him like that. He's not eating, and he can't even sit up :'(

Me and my BFF had a long chat last night about her new home, a thousand or so kilometers away. Our friendship is strong enough to overcome this. We will still see each other as much as possible... I'm happy for her, and I know this is the job she's been waiting for, for a long time. Yes, I still don't like it though, but I want her to be happy.

Oor en uit....


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