A friend I want to be...

Found this on FB again,

Accepts you as you are
Believes in "you"
Calls you just to say "Hi"
Doesn't give up on you
Encourages you to be your best
Forgives your mistakes
Gives unconditionally
Helps you
Invites you over
Just wants to "be" with you
Keeps you close at heart
Loves you for who you are
Makes a difference in your life
Never Judges
Offers support
Prays for you
Quiets your fears
Raises your spirits
Says nice things about you
Tells you the truth when you need to hear it
Understands you
Values you
Walks beside you
X-plains things you don't understand
Yells when you won't listen and
Zaps you back to reality


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Grrrrrr...

So, I went to bed at 20h00, because I'm so very tired...

And now I'm awake, but real awake, grrrrr!

I guess it is true what my BMF always say: "I can't type in my sleep, now can I?"

PS: the infection feels much, much better, but the RA? It hurts real bad again.

PSS: and I'm still tired!


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Verkeerd en finaal...

Ek dreig nou al sowat 'n week om te blog oor als wat in my kop aangaan en hoe my hart voel.

Ek is meeste van die tyd net plain bang en hartseer. Dis aaklig om so te voel, ek hou van lag, en gelukkig wees. Mense loop uit my lewe uit, want ek is soos ek is. Daars niemand om te blameer behalwe myself nie.

Nou moet ek gewoond raak aan die hele gedagte, dat mense wat altyd daar was vir my, nie meer daar is nie. Ek is bly as mense kan aanbeweeg, mense ken wat hulle gelukkig maak, mense wat nie altyd een of ander krisis in hul lewe het nie. Mense wat hulle nie kritiseer of afskeep nie. Mense wat hulle help, regtig help. Mense het wat hul vriende kan wees en by hulle kan staan.

Dis net moeilik om afskeid te neem, hartseer eintlik...

Dan is daar die mense wat siek is, wat nie meer kan wees wat hulle was nie. Dit breek my hart. Ek wens ek kon iets doen om hulle te help. Maar ek kan nie. En al wat ek doen is om te baklei. Dis nie reg nie.

Dan die vrees....dis die seerste, die onsekerheid...

Maar ek het 'n God wat by my staan, en ek weet Hy gaan my nie nou los nie. Hy gaan ook nie die mense vir wie ek lief is los nie! Want my God is Almagtig. Amen!

Ek is dankbaar vir die mense wat bly, die mense wat nog oor is. Ek bid en hoop dat ek hulle nie ook sal verloor nie.

Dis al vir nou...


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Wisdom...

Lessons Learned In Life wrote:

"Life is too short, grudges are a waste of perfect happiness, laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change. Love deeply, and forgive quickly, take chances, give everything, and have no regrets. Life is too short to be unhappy. You have to take the good with the bad, smile when you're sad, love what you've got, and always remember what you had.


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True words...

True friends are not about who came first, and who you've known the longest....
Its about who came and never left!


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Mooi gedagte...

Skoenlappers sien nie hoe mooi hulle vlerke is nie, maar ons doen... Jy sien dalk nie hoe mooi mens jy is nie, maar ek sien... En weet hoe mooi, spesiaal, kosbaar & belangrik jy is... Glo dit, droom dit, leef dit & vlieg hoog... Jy het alles om te kan! Onthou jy is beautiful en 'n kosbare pêrel in God se Hand!!!


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So...

Why is it that the last hour of a work day, can drag on and on? I'm tired, really tired, but trying to sleep at night, is impossible. Yes, its a mind thing, but I can't seem to get it right.

Maybe its because a lot of things are happening at the same time? Things I always hoped, can stay the way they were. We try to do what's best for the people we care for, but we end up pleasing only one party. And its not pleasing either, its sad and it hurts.

All we can do is support, support with love and care. Saying the right things at the right time. And trying not to hurt, with actions or words. The feeling of 'falling apart' is there the whole time, but we must and want to be there, always.

Is it not enough that a person's body aches most of the time? Now along with that your heart hurts.

So.... there are no answers in my head today, maybe tomorrow?


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Not right...

Something is wrong, and I wish I knew how to handle it...

If I'm going to talk about it, it is going to be a huge fight again, but I can't shake this feeling.

The worst part is, its all about trust and honesty, and do I deserve it? Yes, I do....

I'm really sad.....


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