Some random thoughts...

Feeling and longing are the motive forces behind all human endeavor and
human creations - Albert Einstein

The significance of man is not what he attains, but rather in what he longs
to attain - Kahlil Gibran

Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of
human existence - Aristotle

Love begins at home, and it is not how much we do..but how much love we put
in that action - Mother Teresa

When you think about it,what other choice is there but to hope? We have two
options, medically and emotionally: Give up or fight like hell - Lance
Armstrong

I don't want this no more!

I'm so angry I want to cry!

People can be so unfair sometimes, don't you think?

Don't ask me for my opinion if it doesn't matter anyway! Its not what you
can do, its all about seeing how many times you can grovel!
I.don't.brown-nose! I'm not brought up that way!

The worst of all is that they will ask you if you will be able to be
objective! How the flip?! Its my job, and I know how to do it!!

I want to get out! I really do!

Shopping...

Today, was the first in weeks I spent about two hours in a bookshop...yes,
I bought books again, and yes, I know I'm in the middle of a reader's
block. So, I got these five new ones - and I'm really going to try to read
them..

I also know that I'm shopping more, and reading less, but I'm sure I will
get to reading - I do love books!

I stopped in front of the 'shop to let'. Yes, the shop that will be perfect
for my dream! I wish I could just jump in and do it? I wish I could do it
today, start it today. It will be worth every drop of sweat and no sleep
and more to worry about..

I also got two new items for rehab, since I'm doing it so much, I thought
it would be nice, to do it with the proper rehab equipment.

My friend, the far away friend, made me so happy two days ago! I can't
explain how good it feels to see his name in my inbox again! It feels like
he's holding back a bit and being a bit distant - but I will give him the
time and space he needs..as long as he's happy, I'm happy.. I do miss him!

My BFF, is most probably sleeping..I kept her awake last night with all my
babble! We spent the day watching movies, it was fun, but I don't want to
look at another screen for at least a month! Hehehe! It was fun, but my
eyes feel square.. Thanx for being my BFF and being there for me, like you
are! Remember: alles gaan uitwerk..lafsu!

Ok, enough for the day...I'm off to do rehab!

Good news for the day...

Apologies for the english people...

This is an article in our newspaper this morning.

Daar's geen teenvoeter vir liefde nie, daardie soort waarvan Paulus in sy
briewe skryf. Hierdie liefde is natuurlik nie net 'n versameling
goedvoel-emosies nie. Die Here se soort liefde word net in aksie gesien en
gevoel.

Een van die kortpaaie na egte omgee is om gedurig die regte woorde in jou
hart en op jou tong te laai.

Jy moet veral twee frases goed ken en ook reg gebruik. Frase 1: 'Baie
dankie' Frase 2: 'Ek is jammer'

Daar's min woorde wat meer brug-boukrag het as die woord: 'Dankie'

Jammerse-krag werk weer as jy weet jy is verkeerd en dit erken.

Eenvoudige, maar kragtige taal wys dat jy God en ander respekteer en dat jy
nooit dink jy's te groot in jou eie oe nie.

For my friends...

I'm not good at writing down my thoughts...but I'm going to try real hard
tonight.

I'm writing this for my two friends...

We all make mistakes, and nobody knows that better than I do. We say and do
stuff, we think and we try stuff...wish we could turn back time? Jip, that
will be great! But that is one thing we can't do..

Since we all make mistakes and some wrong decisions, who are we to hold it
against the other? Friends stick together, and I know we can and will work
this out. We need to stop apologizing all the time...

I want to tell you that everything will work out! We serve an Almighty God
and He will be with us - always!

I Love you both!

Hope, Peace and Love...

Three amazing words: Hope, Peace and Love...

I think I wrote something on my blog, about these a few days, maybe a week,
ago.

What is means to me?

Well, HOPE: there's always Hope, because we serve an Almighty God, He
creates hope in us, so we have something to look forward to. I've got Hope!
I will not ever stop with this one...

Then, PEACE: this is what I strive for! Knowing in my heart that everything
will work out just fine. Peace also meaning that we can all live together
in peace, without all the hate and ugliness in this very hard world! God
gives us Peace, because He answers our prayers...

Last but not least, LOVE: well we all got so much of this to give! Because
our Lord is Love! With love we can face a lot of things, with Love, peace
and hope is nothing, that being my own opinion, of course...

I want to thank God for these!

I know He will answers my prayers, because of His promise, of Hope, Peace
and Love!

Have a good day, and remember that everything will work out just fine...

Coffee...

Since we love coffee so much:

"A cup of coffee shared with a friend is happiness tasted and time well
spent"

Weekend...

On my way home....

It was a good, busy weekend. Going to take a good long soak as soon as I'm
home.

Had dinner with the family on Friday...went to a farm for a worship
session! It was amazing! Even though we drove home, on an empty tank! Thank
goodness we found petrol in the middle of nowhere...

Went to church this morning, finished up the pool! Jip, the pool is ready
for water... Did some painting and now I'm lying on my friend's bed having
a cup of coffee..

it was good to talk to my friend, the far away friend - even if it was a
few words...

Let me go home!

Longing for God...

In each person's heart there is a longing for God. In times of sadness you
sometimes wonder where God is. Place your hope in Him. Although life is
sometimes hard, you know for sure that God is your helper and that He is by
your side constantly..

Read: Ps 42 1-3, 5-8, 11

Friend, BFF and Rehab...

I'm taking a break from 'rehab'...

I heard from my friend! It was good! I just don't understand why he is not
talking to me? Maybe he's not ready? It was really, really good to hear
from him, even tho we only shared about 10 words in total.

Like I said, I'm busy with rehab, I don't think I will ever find any
pleasure in it at all... The thing is, the 'mountain' is growing every
week. But a woman's gotta do, what a woman's gotta do.

My BFF is lonely! I feel so hopeless sometimes... But she is on the road to
recovery and that is the most important thing of all. She made some good
decisions, and I know she will stick to them!

So this blog was mostly about my dear friends, they are important to me!
And that is what I wanted to say...

Everything will work out just fine!

Laf U two!

....

I can't sleep! I think I had a dream or something, so now I'm wide awake...

I made a cup of coffee, so after that I would really like to sleep.

Funny, huh?

15/9 Diary blog

Sitting in my fav spot (jip, the stoep). Thinking and having a smoke before
I'm off to bed.

Today was good - productive!

Ordered some new Vamp books! I'm excited for Dark Flame, the new addition
to the Immortals series... Then there is a new series, California
something. A different type of Vamps. Now I must just start reading
again...

I miss my friend, the one that's far away... I was dusting my books, and
saw a small book, that used to be his. I hope he is ok and doing well.

Well, I better go sleep....

May God protect you all! Sleep tight!

Before I go to bed...

I want to share this with my dear friends...

Something I read:

God's perfect plan for you:
God wants His chlidren to prosper, have hope, and a bright future. If you
call out to Him, He will listen, if you seek him, you will find Him. God
wants to give you hope for a heavenly future with Him.
Read: Jer 29:11-14

When hope seems lost:
Jeremiah felt that God left him to walk with no light, and that God didn't
want to answer his prayers. He felt completely hopeless. In times of
hardship we might also feel that God is far away, but He will never leave
you on your own.

Hope in God:
Like Jeremiah, you will also discover that God is faithful. He never stops
caring about you. In times of hardship you only have to wait patiently and
pray for God to save you - He always will. Return to Him!

Sleep tight...

Diary blog 14/9

First of all, I overslept, again this morning. I hate when that happens.
The whole day then seem'off', you know.

Work was hectic again. It seems like I can't get anything done, everything
is half way done! I've got one more day, then I need to be done with all my
admin - really, its time. After that its performance discussions, and
believe me, that can take forever!

Then there's my BFF! The J thing is bothering her, even though she didn't
say anything. I know her... Its not that easy just to let go, is it?

At home everything is still full of dust! Urgh! The pool is still not done,
so I don't think there's going to be any swimming this summer...hehe. The
blue dust is getting out of hand now! If I could sell it - I'd be a
millionaire.

Then there's ME! I'm weird, I feel weird. Wish I could explain it to you.
I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm not depressed or stessed. It feels like I
lost some feelings, you know? Ever had that? That the world is on a
completely different planet to yours. Weird, I tell you...

BUT we've got a wonderful God! He will make everything work out just fine!
I believe that!

There's a Bible verse that says: Now these three remains love, hope and
peace...

And I believe that is my motto from now on!

Tomorrow is going to be a good day
God will take care of it..

God bless and sweet dreams

Mark Schultz - Everything To Me - story behind the song

Well....

Listen to this

The best and most beautiful things in the world can not be seen, nor
touched...

But are felt in the heart.

Praise you in this storm

"Praise You In This Storm"

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

Monday...

Weekends are really short, you know. You get home on Friday, and when you
are just busy relaxing, Monday morning is there...

A busy week ahead, so there's no time to sulk about the weekend that's
over.

My BFF did this 'thing', I'm worried about it... I'm sure she will make the
right decision about it, when the time comes. It is something everyone
wants, but I'm just scared she is going back to trying to safe the world? I
will support her 100%, if that is what she wants - I will stick by her!

Did some retail therapy yesterday, spend much too much money, that I don't
have. BUT it was fun. Church was good too, my friend came along and I think
she likes this church, so maybe she will go with every Sunday?

We lost another fish yesterday...don't know why they keep on dying!

Well that's me for this morning.

Enjoy!

Remember: God answers our prayers! Everything will work out!

Very true words...

I like this...

Life has no rewinds and forwards
It unfolds itself at it's own pace

So...

Never miss a chance to live today
to make a beautiful story for
tomorrow!

Random things

Funny how things turn out... The day I decide to go ahead and start my own
thing, I get told that it's a one man show, and I can't buy one! So maybe
this thing I want is not in God's plan? So, yes, I can start my own thing,
but can I take that chance? Do I close my eyes and take the leap? Well, I
don't know that yet...

7/9

Some food for thought...

A message from God:
In answer to Daniel's prayer of confession, God sent the angel Gabriel to
Daniel with the message that his prayer had already been answered. He also
assured Daniel that he could stop worrying and be strong, because God loved
him. When you pray sincerely, God listens and answers your prayers.

To read: Daniel 9:18-19

*I found this in The Bible in 366 days for women*

Goodnight... God bless!

Gebed...

Liewe Here, ons hemelse Vader, dankie vir 'n nuwe dag.

Here, ek wil bid vanoggend dat U asseblief ons gebede sal verhoor? Dat U
ons sal help?

Here dit voel asof ons tot stilstand gekom het, Here dit voel asof daar 'n
gat uit ons harte geruk is...

Help ons asseblief?

Here bring hom vit ons terug? Groot asseblief Here? Ons is lief vir hom en
ons wil graag 'n deel van sy lewe wees...

Here, ek bid dit in U naam.

Amen

Diary Blog 6/9

We are home safe...

My friend went for her check up today, I know she will be fine! I hope the
results are back asap...

Back to work tomorrow, looking forward to it! Amazing what a few days away
can do for a person.

Here is something I read:
Hold on to God's commandments and you will live a full life. Put all your
trust in Him, and don't rely on your own insight. Ask for His will in all
that you do so that He can bless you and show you the path of life.

So that is me for today...

Alles gaan uitwerk!

5/9

Last night here for me...going home tomorrow morning.

It was a good weekend, nice and relaxing. Good to spend some time with the
family, away from the normal routine. Lord, please be with my family? My
sister and her little boy?

I'm worried about my friend...she said she is feeling sick. Hopefully it is
nothing serious! Its her doctor's appointment tomorrow, please keep her in
your prayers? I'm sure everything will be ok! Amen!

Finished the packing, so we can be on our way early...

I miss my friends! The BFF at home and my friend far away...hope he is
ok...

They are both in my prayers tonight, well, actually they are always in my
prayers...

D-Blog 4/9

Back on the stoep...the family is sleeping!

At least I'm nearly done with Morganville III... Hopefully I can get it
done tonight. I don't know why I'm battling to read. Urgh! I love reading
and all of a sudden, this 'reading-block'...

Well, today was extremely hot! At least I lost my very white winter legs
and arms, got a tan! Even tho I'm a bit tender after all that sun.

The game drive was good! Saw my fav animal, yes, the giraffe. Took some
lovely photos. A Eland(I think its called an Onyx/Oryx?) Came for a
'visit'...a flippen HUGE animal! What else did we see? Hornbulls, Zebra,
Impala, Kudu, etc!

Had a braai...and now I'm sitting, staring at the stars. Just a pity I'm
not seeing any shooting stars.. Not that I believe in any of that, mind
you!

I'm tired, but I know I won't be able to go to bed this early...I was awake
at 4am, so there's no way I'm sleeping now.

Have a good night all....
xxx

Diary blog 3/9

This is so nice....

Sitting on the stoep, I can see thousands of stars and its soo quiet. I'm
at one of my fav places!

All I can hear is the insects.

I needed this, I know that now...was not in the mood to come this weekend,
but now I'm glad I did.

A Kudu came for a visit! amazing...she ate out of my hand! First time I
ever experienced it! Her grey tongue, licking up pieces of tomato!

Its wonderful how close I feel to God tonight...sitting here in the
bushveld, with no sirens, or music, I can't even hear other people, except
my sister singing to her son!

Well I just love Dikhololo! Everyone must visit it at least once in their
lifetime...

Going on a game drive at sunrise - anyone want to join me?

Going to try reading Morganville now...I'm still in book 3, on the same
page...for the past month!

Sleep tight...

Why complicate things...

Is it not easier just to let it be? To let the past go and just look to the
future? Why must we always complicate things?

Why measure and analyse everthing that is happening...

We can just love each other, with no complications! It's that simple...

We've got soo much love inside ourselves, let's just share it...

Let's just be ourselves and stop being this creatures that want to live in
the past!

Family, is family - even tho they are not linked by blood, there's some
people with less than no-one.

WE are their someone!

WE don't have to complicate things, by always trying to pick the best horse
in this life race...

With and through God all things are possible.

That is why we must share this love in this complicated world!

Mark from the Casting Crowns says...

• "When we're at the altar, everything makes sense," Hall says. "We know what we're supposed to do. We know how we're supposed to live. Everything's black and white. But somewhere between the altar and the door, when we leave and go out into our lives, it all leaks out, and everything gets gray again. The Christian life is the journey between the altar and door, trying to get the things you've got in your head, into your hands, feet, into your life. The Altar and The Door is all about the journey. The realization on the journey, the struggles and the victory of seeing it as possible."

D-Blog 1/9

Spring is here...it was in the high twenties today, hot for this time of
the year...my Grandad said it's a sign of a dry summer!

Well, I'm really looking forward to the first rain, the first
thunderstorm...

I celebrated my 20 year long service at work today...yes, I can't believe
it either! Got the certificate and the flowers (I don't like flowers,grrrr,
but its the thought that counts! My team also made the day special - thanx
guys!

Busy with housework, and believe me its not good, because I've got so much
time to remember...miss him....yes I still do. Stupid huh?

Going to pack for the weekend when I'm done! Looking forward to spend some
quality time with a book..

And the family!

Feeling a bit better today, its just the sharp pains I get! Urgh! But I'm
sure I will be fine in no time.

The ex-brother-in-law giving my sister grief again... Stupid! Wish he will
just leave them alone!

Smoke break over...see later!

Sweet dreams...