So baie goed..

Ek is bekommerd oor so baie vanoggend! Ek wens ek kon net beter voel?

Eerstens is daar my familie. Hulle beteken vir my die wereld, regtig hulle
doen. Maar, hulle wil my lewe regeer soos dit hulle pas. Wie ek moet ken,
wat ek moet doen en die ergste van alles, wat om met my tyd te doen. Ek ken
van prioriteite, ek doen! En ek weet dis die belangrikste om hulle eerste
te sit, maar wanneer is dit my beurt? Wanneer gaan hulle besef dat ek amper
39 jaar oud is? Ek dank die Here elke dag vir hulle! Maak nie saak hoe ek
soms voel nie, hulle sal altyd eerste wees..

Ek het twee van die wonderlikste vriende, twee mense wat ek baie lief het.
Hulle luister as ek teem en huil en ook wanneer ek net plain 'n koei is!
Hulle stel geen voorwaardes nie. Ek dink hulle ken my eintlik baie goed. Ek
wens ek kon meer tyd saam my BFF spandeer, maar dis bietjie moeilik, veral
nou. So ons gesels maar op die foon... My ander vriend dink hy vat te veel
van my tyd! Ek glo nie hy besef wat ek voel en dink nie... Dan is ek ook
bang dat ons altyd net gaan pen-vriende wees...

Ek is bang vir die einde van die maand, want ek moet wag vir geld om met
Ash's te begin... Dit is scary, want ek kan nie net aanneem dat ek elke
maand 'n salaris gaan trek nie. Ja, ek gaan nie skuld he nie, maar ek het
nogsteeds geld nodig om te lewe.

Vanoggend wil ek alles wat ek het, en die mense vir wie ek so vreeslik lief
het, aan die Here se voete le. Here pas hulle op, vertel asb vir hulle hoe
lief ek hulle het?

Sonder hulle is ek nie veel nie, en sonder U, Here is ek absoluut nilks!

Maar? Alles gaan ok wees en alled gaan uitwerk!

Goodluck!

My BFF found a job!

Thank you God!

I pray for her today. That she will be happy there and that she will enjoy
it. I know she will make a huge success of it!

May God bless you and keep you, S!

Lafsu!

Thank you...

Its the first morning in more than a week, that I woke up without pain!
Thank you Lord! I could get out of bed without crying..
I could do my own make up and hair!

There is something bothering my BFF and she is not talking. I hope and pray
that she is feeling better today. We can't give up, S! Its not right, we
can't doubt the Lord. So whatever it is, I hope you can talk about it, I
really do!

Today is my exit interview, what and how I'm going to handle it, I don't
know...

I feel excited this morning! For my family, friends and Ash's...

Bible's description of Friends!

Friends, according to the original sense of the Hebrew word, are those who delight in each other's company.  Either they are useful to each other because the one possesses gifts that the other lacks, or they have certain tastes in common.

It is in friendship that we get to know ourselves, as a man sees his face in the mirror of calm water.  We unfold to each other, our friend elicits traits of which we are hardly aware. Our sympathy and tenderness are drawn forth by our friend's troubles, as our laughter flashes out to awaken or to answer his high spirits.  

We shudder to think what cold and undeveloped beings we should be without the sharpening of friendship.

How sweet human friendships are!

To read:
Proverbs 27:6, 9-10, 14, 17 & 19

Today...

I did it - I resigned...

Sjoe, that was absolutely a very difficult thing to do! This was 20 years
of my life...

If I can just stop shaking it will help!

First day of the year!

Yes, that was the first day of 2011! Its scary how quickly the festive
season come to a close!

For most people its back to work on Monday, so I'm sure traffic will be
back in full force.

My resignation is typed, printed, signed and sealed. Ready for delivery on
monday morning. The question is, will she tell me to go? Well I really hope
not! I will definitely feel like a dog that's been chased away...

But there is not much I can do about it, is there?

2011!

I'm listening to my BFF snoring.. Hehehehe!

Its the first day, of the new year, and I can feel that this is going to be
the year where dreams are going to come true!

God bless all the people I love, please?