Life is a journey, we all know that, and I've been thinking about it a lot these days. We have so much to be thankful for and I wish I could be more positive about a lot of things.
First of all there is this stupid RA! I've been on cortisone treatment for more or less, five weeks, and I felt great! No pain, I could get up in the mornings and feel well the whole day, I could sleep. But now I'm not on that anymore and the pain is back, back with a vengeance. I started the new treatment nearly a week ago, and they said it will only start working in another three weeks. Not so great, I'm sore, I can't sleep and the winter weather is really getting me down. I cry a lot, and that is just plain irritating!
I gave my healing to Jesus! I know He will heal me, and I know I will be ok. He is my rock and my Savior. I will wait, and I know it's ok to cry a bit, because He understands!
I can't control how people react or how they make decisions. How they changed or how they want to go about a friendship that is just 'not anymore'. I tried talking, I did. But it seems that I can't save it. It bothers me. It hurts me. But I don't know what to do no more. It is so sad. I didn't make the decision to end it.
I love my family, I like my job. I want to live my life in a more positive way. I want to make the most of my God giving journey!
Jesus, I need your help. You know what's in my heart...
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