Welcome to a new year with new challenges, hopes and dreams. In God I believe that it will be another good one.
I did not end last year on a good note, I went to bed with my sister not talking to me. And again it was all my doing. Why? Because I am scared she gets used and hurt. I need to let it go. I really do. She said she is in control and that she knows how she feels...so if it is true then I must stop. It is not worth it to loose my sister over this. If she is happy I must accept what it is. I think I am selfish. I also think she derserve much better.
I truly hope she will talk to me when she wakes up this morning...but I don't think she will. Maybe I do deserve the cold and silent shoulder treatment.
A few things for me to do in this new year. I must smoke less (or maybe it is time to stop smoking). I want to build my relationships with the people I know (not that that started off well). I want to know God. Better and better. I need to try and loose weight. Sounds a lot like the same old same old new year resolutions. But I am going to try them....and I need to make them stick.
I truly love my family and friends deeply. They deserve to be happy. They deserve to be themselves. Not what I want them to be.
Please God...help me to be better? Please? Please help me to accept?
I did not end last year on a good note, I went to bed with my sister not talking to me. And again it was all my doing. Why? Because I am scared she gets used and hurt. I need to let it go. I really do. She said she is in control and that she knows how she feels...so if it is true then I must stop. It is not worth it to loose my sister over this. If she is happy I must accept what it is. I think I am selfish. I also think she derserve much better.
I truly hope she will talk to me when she wakes up this morning...but I don't think she will. Maybe I do deserve the cold and silent shoulder treatment.
A few things for me to do in this new year. I must smoke less (or maybe it is time to stop smoking). I want to build my relationships with the people I know (not that that started off well). I want to know God. Better and better. I need to try and loose weight. Sounds a lot like the same old same old new year resolutions. But I am going to try them....and I need to make them stick.
I truly love my family and friends deeply. They deserve to be happy. They deserve to be themselves. Not what I want them to be.
Please God...help me to be better? Please? Please help me to accept?
