Its been an awful weekend...or actually it ended all wrong. Why is it that a misunderstanding can turn into a fight or not atually a fight, but this leave-me-alone moments. Moments where things are said and done that hurt real bad? The worst of all is that its the same thing over and over. Nothing gets resolved because no one wants to talk about it. And then? History repeats itself again the next time around. Its not right. Its not fair. It hurts...every time. To make matters worse it is now all of us not talking. Adults that we are.
What really hurt yesterday was the words...this family is doomed. Well we are not! Because we have a Father in Heaven that will not allow us to be 'doomed'! I refuse to believe that.
I will keep trying and praying. That is all that is left.
That is what you do if you love people...not so?
This whole situation made me think of moving for the first time in five years...maybe that is a solution. Maybe not. I dont mind living in a room. So I started looking around....
I love my family. There is no words to describe how much. I will do anything for them. So maybe that is the solution...maybe not. Who knows?
At least my blogs are private and I can say how I feel without hurting people more!
By the way...I hate feeling like this...aai...
