Please...

The pain is so constant again. When I sit it's sore. When I get up it's sore. When I walk and stand...

I have this knob under my foot. It's painfull and uncomfortable.

Please God take it away...please?

Fwd: Positive thoughts...

I woke up this morning and realized again that life is precious.  I have this ability to complain, not out loud, but within myself, as soon as I wake up.  If it is not icy cold, my body is caught up in pain or I'm just too tired for whatever reason.  Well that is stopping today.  I will get up with a positive attitude and I will stop complaining.  And of course I will stop crying because of all these negative things.  I have this pain thing going and I need to make the most of it.  God will heal me when His time is right.  At least I can say that the pain is better with the chemo and other new medication.  For that I am eternally grateful.  God is good all the time.

 

I'm looking forward to summer.  I believe this summer is going to be the start of many changes.  For one thing it will be grand to see the sun rising, and not get to work when it is still half dark outside.  My Mom is officially on pension and that is also going to be a change for all of us.  Our little boy is going to big school in the new year and Ouma can't wait to spend more time with him.  Even when it means that she will be going 'back to school'as well, helping with homework and all the other school things.  She is excited and it is good that she can look forward to this challenge.  She is on holiday in Mosselbaai, and we miss her stacks, can't wait to see her next weekend.  Our 'little boy' is growing up so fast, it is amazing how they are doing sums and spelling already.  That he can write his name and surname, that he can have this debate with you, to inform you with great confidence that a shark is not a 'soogdier' (sorry can't remember the word I'm looking for in English).  He is a gift from our Lord above, a reminder why we are here, why we love and care.  His Mom is the center of his life.  A great Mother.  The way she can play rugby with him, the way she can calm him down when bad dreams wakes him.  I can't ask for a better sister and BFF.  She is great…

 

Work is going well.  Not much excitement really.  I thought it will be more of a challenge, because the business is growing daily, but we are not there yet.  The people I work with is friendly and likeable, except the one girl, a real 'gatkruiper' and pain in the butt.  Im really trying to like her and to keep my issues with her to myself.  But, ja, we will see.  I appointed her, so I need to live with it.  The farm is peaceful, and very little rules apply. 

 

I think that is enough 'babble' for one day…. I'm sure I will have more exciting things to blog about – soon.